Insomnia

You ever have that thing where you can't sleep even though you're way too tired to stay awake? Welcome to my world. This is so incredibly annoying. Last night I stumbled out of bed, knowing that I couldn't really do anything because I was too tired to, and checked my e-mail where only two messaged had sneaked into the mailbox. And they really weren't that interesting. Damn! I wanted to read, but couldn't focus, because I was so tired, and you know what it is? It's the restlessness having a peak into my system and fucking everything up. Okay, so I have to get up at 4am at the day (=night) of my departure, and I just know I won't have any sleep that night at all. You should all feel sorry for me if it wasn't because everything will be so awesome for me when I'm gone.

Yes, I'm thinking about this too much, or am I? I've been waiting for this for more than a year and I deserve to get going at this point. Besides, my book wants to be written as well. It begs for it. It begs for it so much that this morning when I was riding my bike to work, I was so lost in thought about it that I almost hit head first into a metal pole. That would've hurt.

But don't worry, that's nothing I'll bother you with. That's someone my various notes have to deal with. But I will tell you this much: think Kerouac with a Broken Social Scene soundtrack, mixed with the casuality of Bret Easton Ellis and the feel of Carson McCullers. So... that's what I hope for anyway.